Wow, Morgan is officially through partying with her friends. Our kitchen saw more action last night than it has ever seen. Cakes and icing everywhere, but oh what fun. As soon as I can figure out how to post pictures, I will show you the future of Duncan Hines. These girls were quite adorable in their chefs hats and painted aprons. Fun for all of us, including me!
Occasions like birthdays always leave me a little blue. While I enjoy every age my kids are, some years more than others, I always mourn the loss of a little innocence. It seems that children grow up faster and faster than we ever did. Even now in the last two day, Makenzie, 2, has gone from diapers to pull ups to panties, given up her pacifier, and is now drinking cold milk from a cup. These maybe little things to most people, but to me, her mom, it is the passing of infancy to "little girldom". Mikaela, 7, has never been a baby. She has a wise old soul and has always seemed so much older than she is. Although we enjoy her companionship and intelligent conversation, I would much rather her crawled up in my lap still needing me to read to her instead of her reading in her room to herself. Then there's Morgan, our sweet birthday girl. She is still very much a work in progress, as are we all, but in the last year she has become a confident, caring, charismatic not so little girl that takes our breath away when she prays. What a blessing all of our kids are. Which brings me to my last little bit of unsettledness.
Anytime we have a major occasion in our house be it a holiday, birthday, the starting of school, etc. We are always reminded of the one we don't get to watch grow up. Although we don't mourn the way we used to, we still very much have a sense of incompleteness in our hearts and in our home. I find myself never far from the sadness that can sometimes encompass my joy when I think of all the things we miss with our son, Luke. I am forever thankful for our short time with him and although our memories are few, we make new ones of him growing up in our hearts, imagining what he would be like today. I believe that God gives us glimpses of him in the girls, and for that I am thankful.
On days like today, I think on these things...
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish , spoil or fade-- kept in heaven for ME.... In this I greatly rejoice, though now for a little while I may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that my faith... may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."
Hug your kids today, and have an awesome day.