Monday, June 27, 2005

Deep Breath, Please.

It's been several days since my last entry as the girls and I have just completed our first official Cousin's Camp with Kevin's parents. Mikaela, Morgan, Kenzie, and cousin Logan had an awesome week together... mudpies, swimming, planting peas, VBS, painting pottery, making jewelry, making t-shirts, and most of all, making memories. Amidst the Dance Party, legos, dress-up clothes, and other fun activities "we didn't get much sleep, but we had a lot of fun... in grandma's feather bed." I am thankful that my children have a heritage steeped in family traditions and lots of love. Both my parents and Kevin's parents take more than just an interest in our kids, they cherish every moment with them.

While shopping the main street of Graham with my sister in law, Carla, I saw something that caught my eye. "Life isn't measured by the number of breaths we take, but the number of moments that take our breath away". I want my life to be one stolen breath after another.

I am thankful today as I unpack one suitcase for my kids just to pack another. Morgan and Mikaela will be leaving on Friday with my parents to spend ten wonderful days in the mountains above Colorado Springs with many relatives. Instead of Lions, and Tigers, and Bears, OH MY! It's Aunts, and Uncles, and Cousins, OH MY! As much as Kevin and I would like to share this adventure with our kids, there is something sacred about this time with their grandparents. Their relationship develops in a way that would otherwise not exist if we were there.

I know Grandparents Day isn't until September, but thank you Charles, Dorothy, Mim, and Garon for filling the lives of three very special children with moments that take their breath away.

We love you.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

"The Goats Have My Pacifiers??"

The roads between Bulverde and Abilene, Texas are dotted with farms; cows, sheep, horses, some exotics, and goats. As we passed each farm, Makenzie decided the cows and horses were "Butiful", but for some reason she concluded that the goats were gonna get her pacis. I might have said somewhere along the road that goats will eat anything, including pacifiers. Just a couple days after this trip through the hill country petting zoo, I decided it was time for Kenzie to give up her pacifiers. So, she now believes that the goats have her pacis. The Tooth Fairy, Santa, Pacifier Eating Goats.... I guess she'll be ok.

Last night several of the girls got together to celebrate our friend, Magdalena's, birthday. We had a nice dinner out while Kevin took six children to church! Wow! Betty, Cindy, Magdalena, and I are very different and yet very much the same. None of us goes to the same church or believes exactly the same thing about religious doctrine, but we all love God, love each other, work very hard to raise our children to do the same, and believe strongly in community and the blessing that comes from really knowing your neighbors. We realize that we are in a unique demographic and have been given a great gift in each others families. I am thankful for this group of strong women who love the Lord and love me. I pray that the work of God will continue to be displayed in our lives so that we can continue to build a community that loves Him and loves each other.

Busy day today, cleaning up a slumber partied in house, trip to the grocery store, swimming with the girls, laundry (of course), cooking, 7 extra people for dinner, packing for Cousin's Camp, and if I think of anything else I might explode so I think I'll just stop here. Peace to All!!!

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Birthday Blessings, Birthday Blues

Wow, Morgan is officially through partying with her friends. Our kitchen saw more action last night than it has ever seen. Cakes and icing everywhere, but oh what fun. As soon as I can figure out how to post pictures, I will show you the future of Duncan Hines. These girls were quite adorable in their chefs hats and painted aprons. Fun for all of us, including me!

Occasions like birthdays always leave me a little blue. While I enjoy every age my kids are, some years more than others, I always mourn the loss of a little innocence. It seems that children grow up faster and faster than we ever did. Even now in the last two day, Makenzie, 2, has gone from diapers to pull ups to panties, given up her pacifier, and is now drinking cold milk from a cup. These maybe little things to most people, but to me, her mom, it is the passing of infancy to "little girldom". Mikaela, 7, has never been a baby. She has a wise old soul and has always seemed so much older than she is. Although we enjoy her companionship and intelligent conversation, I would much rather her crawled up in my lap still needing me to read to her instead of her reading in her room to herself. Then there's Morgan, our sweet birthday girl. She is still very much a work in progress, as are we all, but in the last year she has become a confident, caring, charismatic not so little girl that takes our breath away when she prays. What a blessing all of our kids are. Which brings me to my last little bit of unsettledness.

Anytime we have a major occasion in our house be it a holiday, birthday, the starting of school, etc. We are always reminded of the one we don't get to watch grow up. Although we don't mourn the way we used to, we still very much have a sense of incompleteness in our hearts and in our home. I find myself never far from the sadness that can sometimes encompass my joy when I think of all the things we miss with our son, Luke. I am forever thankful for our short time with him and although our memories are few, we make new ones of him growing up in our hearts, imagining what he would be like today. I believe that God gives us glimpses of him in the girls, and for that I am thankful.

On days like today, I think on these things...
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish , spoil or fade-- kept in heaven for ME.... In this I greatly rejoice, though now for a little while I may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that my faith... may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."

Hug your kids today, and have an awesome day.

Monday, June 13, 2005


Summertime... Watermelon, swimming, sleeping until 7:30, playing games, sleep-overs, birthdays, Grandparents, Cousin's Camp, the river, reunions, Colorado, the beach, friends, vacation, books, movies, riding bikes, walks at sunset, hair not brushed, school's out, playing outside, printing on the computer, camp.....
Morgan and Mikaela's favorite things.

What are some of your favorite things about summer?

I think one of my favorite things is being home with the kids and watching them play together. There are very few times during the school year that they can just "be sisters" without a lot of interruption. Of course this play time also involves a little "friendly chatter" that sometimes becomes unfriendly, but quickly resolves with a little help from mom and a little "room time". After a few minutes alone on the bed, they quickly realize they'd rather be playing together.

I am always amazed at the amount of food we go through in the summer. Everyone is always hungry. Thankfully "The Paw Paw's" fixed a place for the extra freezer in the laundry room. There's plenty of room for frozen Gogurt, popsicles, and ice cream, and when things get a little too crazy around here, I can poke my head in and cool off! Of course the house is dirtier, but I expected that and have decided it's o.k.

Tomorrow night is Morgan's birthday party. We're having a "dinner party" in the dining room with dress up clothes, candles, real glasses, and Morgan's favorite meal, roast beef. Then, the girls will put on aprons and chefs hats to decorate their very own cakes to take home and share with their families. To top it all off, we'll finish the evening with party games and a not so sleepy sleep-over. When I planned this party, Kevin was going to be home to help me. Not so anymore, he has his own "dinner party" to attend. So, Makenzie will be my helper...ha! It should be memorable if nothing else.

Have a great day from my crazy house to yours.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Two Years Old, and Counting

Today Makenzie had a doctor's appointment to assess repeated nursemaid's elbow. The only way to treat this is to cast her for three weeks. Well, if you know Makenzie, you know that the only ones it would be worse for than her are the rest of us who have to live with her!! She is not a calm, sit still, yes mommy, kind of girl. She's a paint the carpet with red nail polish, go outside by myself, climb in the trunk, kind of girl. So, we've decided that livng with nursemaid's elbow is better than living with Makenzie in a cast.

As I sat in the waiting room today, I saw many people hurting, whether physically or otherwise. There was a mom in there in tears because there was no money to cast her child's not yet repaired broken bone. Credit card? She didn't have one. Medicaid? Some problem, imagine that.
Kids in wheelchairs, kids in casts, kids on crutches, kids crying, kids broken, yet held together by the Great Physician.

Heavenly Father, bless all children tonight. Heal the sick, especially my neice,Kaitlyn, and Ira Hays. Keep the healthy strong. Thank you for new babies, like Sam Thomas. Continue to hold close the children that greet you before we do, like our Luke and Noah Whaley. Provide and comfort the children without parents, without homes, without food. Thank you for your child, Jesus, who takes away the sins of the world.

Monday, June 06, 2005

First time for everything...

For someone who always has something to say, I seem to be at a loss for words tonight. This is my first time to blog on my own site. I have left comments for others at certain times, but never written my own post. If you happen upon this site, I can't promise words of wisdom, or life changing banter, but I hope you have a good read. Tonight I am home by myself as Kevin and the big girls are out of town. Kevin in Fort Worth and Mikaela and Morgan at KidQuest at ACU. Hoping for a great week for the girls and Aunt Amy.
Tonight I am thankful for my family, for the energy they bring to this house and my life. I am thanful for Makenzie who has watched Scooby Doo four times today as she mourns the absence of her sisters. I am thankful for Kevin who works so hard and never complains. I am thankful for my parents and Kevin's parents who came to celebrate Morgan's sixth birhday and for my sister, Amy, who has carved out a permanent place in our hearts and our lives.

Goin to bed to dream of my girls and my guy.